Dear stomach, why do you hate me sometimes?

I think flies are able to regenerate from dead flies. Sick.

I need to hire a professional to give me daily massages.

What should my next life goal be? I tackled college, I need a new one.

Naps in my car at lunch are definitely worth being teased about.

I despise folding clothes.

Do you think anyone would notice if I fled the country for 2 months and set up a temporary home in Fiji?

I think I need a bike.

I really need a piano.

I also need pepper spray.

The sun is almost down and it's 3:51 pm. Never get used to that part of winter.

Should I really go out with that 21 year old?

I am so ridiculously addicted to Army Wives. It's not even funny... wait, yes it is. I'm addicted to a Lifetime network tv show. THAT IS FUNNY!

I miss my grandparents. Nieces. Mom. Family. Thanksgiving needs to come NOW!

To gym, or not to gym? That is my neverending battle.

Do you think I could somehow order a mass punching in the face for New Yorkers?

My friend Jordan and I decided to go photographing again. It's been forever since we went out and took pictures. Well it got dark way too early so we did some random shots around my house. Some of these are from our shoot and some are just from a random one I did one day.

My basement













My basement, HDR edit



















Jordan in my basement



















Taken with Russian Lens my bro gave me



















Taken with Russian Lens my bro gave me



















This was an accident but looks cool!













Reminds me of Alice and Wonderland when she drinks the potion, taken with Jordan's fish eye lens

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I have to say Michael Buble is fantastic at making me smile with his music. If ever I find out he's coming to Utah I'M GOING!!!!!!!!!!!

Here's his newest video, probably one of the cutest love songs. It makes me wanna dance. It's called "Haven't Met You Yet."


Also, this is my favorite song of his... Everything. Favorite lyrics ever, "I get to kiss you baby just because I can!"


Enjoy, because I DID!

One of the cutest songs I've heard in a while. And for obvious reasons, I love it right now. I hope you enjoy it.

I guess I'm up to what, monthly posts now? HAHA. Sorry... I didn't have the internet for a whole month, and at work I actually... work. So here's a few updates. I went to Parowan this year for Labor Day and the traditional Iron County Fair/Rodeo/Party. It was so much fun because this year Tyler went with me. If you don't know who Tyler is... well... he's my boyfriend. There... good enough description. Oh and he's hot. Did I mention that? Well see for yourself... here's some pictures we took from the weekend. We took so many I only posted my favorites.


Mom's hands.

Abandoned house in ParowanCedar Breaks... it was very windy and cold.


What else have I been up to? WELL... I BOUGHT A NEW CAR A MONTH AGO!!! A super nice 2008 Mazda 3 Hatchback. It's got the works too. It's super fast, and it's so dark charcoal it looks black. Probably my most favorite thing ever! I LOVE DRIVING IT!!! I just hate the payments. Oh well.... I needed a new one anyway.

Other news... it was 81 degrees yesterday, and today it is 45 degrees. I think Utah is crazy!

I took these spider pictures today. Don't ask me why, I hate spiders with a passion of a thousand phobias. But the pictures turned out AWESOME! And he caught a mosquito and ate it during the shoot. Also, the first picture was taken by my friend from work, Karine. We found that grasshopper just hanging out on her windshield wipers. Enjoy, the pictures still give me the creeps but I LOVE them for some reason.

Also, Aunt Jeanne, if Robert knows what kind of spider it is, and if it's poisonous, I'd love to know!

So... since I have this new found idea that I want to do photography as a hobby, and I like to play around with editing to see if I can do it. I came up with this picture that I took of myself with my webcam back in June. I edited the background obviously. It's a little messy but I won't tell you where.

Some new photos I took while working at a seminar. This is of the South Town Expo Center's front windows in the lobby. The windows made for a cool effect. Took this with a Canon Rebel T1i, and used the standard lens that comes with it. Hmmm not bad...

My new favorite song... her lyrics are always so sweet and simple. Enjoy this live version.

Colbie Caillat - Falling For You

I've been playing around with photos again. I edited some of these, and I happen to be proud of myself. :) Let me know what you think.

I have found a new love, it is latin dancing. My friend Ginene took me last weekend at a place here in town. I have turned down a few invites to go latin dancing from her before because I was nervous to make a fool of myself. I mean have you seen me? I've got super long pencil arms... they have a mind of their own and this mind doesn't include a graceful ability or the sultry skills that latinas are born with. I can't even shimmy without shaking my hips on accident too. It then turns into something like a full body seizure. Naturally, you can see why I avoid any dances involving the word sexy. Most of my dance moves consist of acting like a nerd doing the robot, or a full body flail.

So anyway, we get there and some of her friends are there, and a couple of her really cute latino friends spent the rest of the night teaching me my newfound latin moves! It was great! I've always loved salsa music, and I love mexican food, so I guess it's a given I'd love latin dancing too. I think my dancing friends were just Casanovas, because some of their lines consisted of "Did you used to take ballroom, you seem like a natural!", or after smashing his toes, "No that's my fault, I put my foot under yours." Yeah, and I always say that when someone smashes my foot too. "I apologize for running my face into your fist, I feel horrible for making you punch me."

Also, in other news, I may have found a job. I'm excited! They seem like a fun company, and I start next week. Double thumbs up for me! Not to say my job hunt didn't take forever and have weirdos in it. I mean what's with the old guy still living his high school basketball glory days who after asking if I was single and after I told him what I like to do for fun, then proceeds to eye me up and down and guess audibly if I'm one of "those crazy girls". I'm going to guess his definition of crazy meant freaky (or kinky), which also means I threw up in my mouth and cried inside a little. I'm also going to guess when he achieves something amazing at work he smashes the nearest office nerd into the nearest cubicle wall and yells, "O'DOYLE RULES!", and does the air guitar for an extra effect.

This is one of the many reasons that I love Sara Bareilles. She's amazing. She totally plays to her crowd, but has an amazing unteachable talent. Everytime I see her live videos I'm insanely impressed. My next wish is to see her LIVE!!!! This is a funny video... she was playing at a concert and her song is usually pretty mellow but they started fist pumping to it so she did a little bit of a tweak to enhance it. Enjoy!

So internet, today I just finally solved one of the mysteries of life. What is the answer to that million dollar question? Ok come closer, listen carefully --- I just told a guy I wasn't interested in him when he asked me out, and he thanked me for being honest and treated me nicely afterward.

WHAT?!!!?!?

I think I just peed my pants with glee.

Here I thought that you had to let guys down gently, meaning make up excuses until they get the point. I do not say any of this with any arrogance, I have been dumped as much as I've dumped. I have been rejected and know how that feels. I am simply trying to say... I solved a problem I usually create.

I have always known guys say they want honesty, but every time I tried it in the past it ended horribly, which then scared me from trying the honest route ever again. I only previously tried it twice because one guy couldn't handle it, cried his eyes out and told me I was a horrible evil-spirited person which made me feel like the devil and I almost went out with him again because of my guilt. The second proceeded to tell himself I was kidding, and called me everyday for 3 weeks until my friend finally got on the phone and told him I was NOT interested and my 3 weeks of ignored calls should not be mistaken for playing hard to get, they are specifically a loud and clear signal to BACK OFF. Both of these however happened after date one. I had circumstantial evidence showing me why they weren't the guys for me, I wasn't just assuming.

Anyway, back to the current matter. I told him he seemed nice but I was interested in someone else and that I didn't think we should go out. My brain feels scrambled almost. Like this is some amazing never before heard of concept that I have just discovered... HONESTY? You can tell them you're not interested and it won't hurt their feelings? Wow! I think I just saved a couple weeks of dodging phone calls and making up gentle lies. Now that energy can be put to good use, like my never ending homework because I decided to graduate right now.

I think the really great thing is, I saved him a lot of time too and actually may have caused way less damage. He no longer has to wonder about me at all, and now he cannot put me in the category that all girls who make up excuses get put into. Now if I could just learn to do that BEFORE they get my phone number. I still have a hard time saying no to phone number requests when I'm not interested. It's scary looking them in the face and saying "No I'm sorry, I don't want to give it to you, but thank you for the compliment of asking."

Baby Steps.

P.S. Any guy opinions on this will be welcome. I may disagree, but go for it anyway. And please, if at all possible, spare the "you're satan" comments. You still have my permission to think them. :)

This is what happens when I take my crappy digital camera that is currently held together by a rubber band, is running out of batteries so I have to keep turning it off and waiting for some juice to come back, to Utah Lake on a sunny afternoon and use my self timer. (Oh yeah, and I tweaked some of the photos too...). I'm pretty happy with what I got.


It was such a beautiful day, I'm sad that one day soon I'll be employed again looking out the window sadly wishing I was out there basking in the beautiful sunshine. I guess I should be thankful I'm not employed right now instead of complaining then huh?

Well, for those of you who don't know, I made it!!! Here's a bunch of pictures from the day. It was so much fun! While the festivities kinda dragged on, it was so awesome to be sitting at my graduation. I know it took me forever. I have had 5 majors, a one year hiatus, and many part time semesters due to lack of funding! All this is ending just as I'm turning 25. It was so much fun though. I was surprised that I had feelings the whole day that I would miss my college life. (Lucky for me I still have to take a couple classes until June so I am not missing it quite yet!) I don't know why I'll miss the constant stress, having to be in 5 places at once, missing my cash flow, missing years of sleep, and sitting in those hard chairs with a desk attached.


I just want to say a quick thank you to my family. My mom, stepdad Sam, and my dad all helped me through college, they paid for my Associate's and helped me whenever I ran into roadblocks. They also spent countless hours on the phone with me helping me grow up! Also a thank you to my Grandparents, and anyone else who has been there and helped me! I love ALL of you. I'm so lucky to have such wonderful and supportive family and friends.